I haven’t seen her since past few months.
Ever since I heard about the news, I was so scared to see her.
Wondering how should I act around her?
What should I say to her?
Do I need to bring her something?
Maybe a bucket of fruits of bouquet of flowers would be nice.
But, I did read her blog, and she can’t eat something with Vitamin-C.
Well maybe I was wrong.
And then one of my friends asked me to visit her with him.
And I was like,
“I’m scared. Do you think its ok for us to visit her?”
He was scared too.
Later one night he texted me, and that was the night that I will never ever forget.
I was sleeping when I received the SMS.
But when I was about to open the SMS, Syaza called.
I was trembling when Syaza’s voice entered my ear.
I hung up and then I opened my inbox and began to read the SMS from him.
“Just thought you should know.. Sara just passed away.. There might be a funeral tomorrow at 9..I’ll let you know if there’s any changes” –Ajib.
I was shocked, unable to think.
And then I received another SMS.
“I heard that Sara just passed away” –Asip.
I opened up the previous SMS that I have received when I was sleeping.
“Yan, Sara dah passed away” –Nadia Sheikh Hatim.
I walked down stairs and stared at my mom.
She asked me what happened.
And then I cried.
My phone was ringing all the time. Zatey called, Yazira called from UK.
I was crying over the phone.
I am sorry for not being there.
I was so afraid to meet you.
I don’t know what I was thinking but I wish I can turn back the time.
But I can’t.
I will see you on Sunday.